Father John Misty – Fear Fun


t’s hard to imagine a world without music’s foremost loveable troll, Father John Misty. He goes by many names, but whether you know him as Josh Tillman, J. Tillman, or Father John Misty, he has been confounding critics and fans for over a decade. Today we’ll look all the way back to where it began for FJM, the 2012 debut album Fear Fun. This album was in heavy rotation for me for a few years, but with subsequent releases, it has kinda been bumped out of the top spot. Listening to it again brings me back to when I first discovered the album. It was the only Father John Misty music available, so I played the shit out of it. I can remember hearing these songs for the first time before it became my favorite album of the 2010s.

After listening to the album in order and in full for the first time in a while, I realized how much of my initial impression of Tillman as a snarky cynic was not the whole picture. Behind the irony, witticisms and sardonic lyrics are introspective and often self-deprecating observations. Early on, music journalists often portrayed Tillman as a bit of a jester poking fun at the royal court (music journalists and industry bigwigs). However, as time has passed, and with the context of his subsequent albums, his observations have been revealed to be biting and poignant commentaries on celebrity and the self-importance of those who have both sought and achieved it.

Take, for example, “Fun Times In Babylon,” where it seems apparent that he’s directly comparing Hollywood and the entertainment industry to the depravity and excess of Babylon and historical abuses by people in power. Yet, even with those comparisons, he still headed to Hollywood to attempt a career in the industry he writes so disparagingly about. It reminds me a bit of this much over-used quote from Hunter S. Thompson:

“The music business is a cruel and shallow money trench, a long plastic hallway where thieves and pimps run free, and good men die like dogs. There’s also a negative side.”

-Hunter S. Thompson

Father John Misty at Newport Music Hall in Columbus, OH. January 17, 2013 - Photo: Brian Bruemmer, Rubatophoto.com

Tillman’s snark, however, is not just reserved for others. When he initially left the Pacific Northwest for California, it was to write a novel. In the aptly named song, “I’m Writing a Novel,” he aims squarely at himself and other novelists’ who think what they are doing is something new and important, singing, ‘And I’m writing a novel because it’s never been done before.” This song also includes a true story of an ayahuasca trip with a Canadian shaman that found him naked in an oak tree, where he says he got his first clear view of himself. As far as self-discoveries go, that’s an epic one!


The album as a whole is fantastic, but there are a few other stand-out moments for me. On “Well, You Can Do It Without Me,” Tillman seemingly takes aim at his former band, the Fleet Foxes, and announces his arrival as a solo artist. In one of the more meta moments of the album, “Now I’m Learning To Love The War,” he laments the ravages of consumerism and the cost of making and distributing records, the very medium he’s releasing the music on.

Father John Misty at Madison Theater in Covington, KY. September 21, 2015 - Photo: Brian Bruemmer, Rubatophoto.com

The album closes with my favorite song from the album, “Everyman Needs a Companion.” I’m not usually one to ascribe meaning to someone else’s lyrics, but I can’t help with this one. First, notice he uses “everyman” instead of “every man,” knowing how particular Tillman is with his lyrics, I can’t help but think that this is intentional. He’s not saying that every individual man needs a companion, but rather that the colloquial “everyman” does. Merriam-Webster defines everyman as “the typical or ordinary person,” and it’s often a trope used in storytelling that allows readers/viewers to identify with the character. I think he’s commenting that before his reinvention as Father John Misty, he was an everyman. He had searched for himself in the philosophy of Joseph Campbel, the music of The Rolling Stones, and even his religious upbringing. Yet, it wasn’t until he grew tired of who he was as Joshua and his previous songwriting pen name of J. Tillman that he entirely discovered himself. It turns out the companion he needed was his alter ego.

it wasn’t untill he grew tired of who he was as Joshua and his previous songwriting pen name of J. Tillman, that he really discovered himself. Turns out the companion he needed was his alter ego.

Boy, that was a journey, but when an artist takes on a stage name, they often do so to escape who they are in their day-to-day lives—a way to disassociate from the troubles of relationships, responsibilities, and the banalities of life. Sometimes though, an artist’s creative identity is the “real” version of them. I’d argue that the imaginary character of Father John Misty is the fully formed version of Josh Tillman. Through FJM, he has truly found himself. Ten years later, Fear Fun feels like the first step on the journey of self-actualization that continues in the following albums, and I, for one, can’t wait to see where it goes next.


Throughout the decade (and even in this review), Father John Misty has been described over and over again as sardonic, cynical, satirical, derisive, ironic, and more. But no matter what you think of the mythos of Tillman and his FJM persona, it’s undeniable that his music is more than just a tongue-in-cheek jape. Through the snark and wit, there’s real introspection and self-awareness that’s often lacking in music. It’s been ten years since Fear Fun first hit my ears, and with the context of how his music evolved on subsequent albums, I think I like it even more.


Josh Tillman now has five studio albums under the Father John Misty moniker. In 2022 he released Chloe and the Next 20th Century, an album that, I must say, hasn’t really grabbed me yet, but he continues to evolve and upend expectations. He is currently on a world tour through South America and Europe.

Musician, concert photographer, writer, podcast host and founder of The Hot Mic Music Magazine.

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